Motivation

Rationale for a living foods lifestyle

47 degrees = suspension

December 7, 2009
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Rain clouds over Los Angeles

Rain clouds over Los Angeles

It’s raining.  Hard.  It’s 47 degrees outside.  I know, it’s a balmy day for Ottawa (where I used to live).  Here in L.A., however, it’s FREEZING.  My fellow Canadians are laughing their asses off at me right now. I’ve gone soft  :-) .

I have succumbed to hot veggie-licious soup and roasted veggies.  Yes.  I’ve suspended the 30 day challenge.  My body just isn’t feeling it.  I want warming grounding food.  I know, I can get it via raw foods with creative use of spices, dehydrator, running the Blentec until food is warm, warming things to the touch on the stove top, etc.

I know myself regarding food.  I’m in recovery from an eating disorder.  I need to give myself what I want when I want it.  Otherwise I go into deprivation and denial mode, which is one step away from a binge.

Today’s menu: oatmeal with flax, walnuts, and a wee bit of stevia.  Lunch will be a green smoothie.  Dinner will probably be miso soup with kale and portobello mushrooms and some steamed veggies.   Healthy.

I’m going back to Eat to Live.  It’s high raw. It works for me.  I plan on doing another 30 day challenge when the spring arrives and it’s warm in Los Angeles again.   Fresh strawberry season makes it easier to love the living foods.

I did well at sticking to my goals last week.  I was 100 per cent raw for 5 days and 90% the remaining two.  I got in my 5 days of cardio.  My goals haven’t changed all that much.  I’m keeping the 5 day per week cardio.  My other goal is to eat leafy greens with lunch and dinner.   Do-able.

Urgent donations needed for Dominic

December 3, 2009
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Elaina Love’s son Dominic needs funds to continue his fight with leukemia. I had the delight of taking my first ever raw foods class with Elaina back in 2005. She’s amazing and she motivates me to continue with my path in living foods. More information about Dominic and a place to make donations. Many healing wishes to you Dominic!

https://shop.rawfoodchef.com/ElainaDonation.html

Next 30 day challenge

November 22, 2009
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It’s time for me to challenge myself again.  I’ve been rocking the SAD vegetarian diet since the beginning of October and I’m feeling the effects.  Ergo, I have committed to doing another 30 day 100% raw challenge beginning Sunday November 29, 2009.   I’m starting after Thanksgiving. rawfoodchallenge That’s a big food-focused holiday especially for my family.  I will succeed in staying vegetarian, no problem.  It’s not a time to be hard-core on the raw though.  Christmas isn’t as food-focused for us. We celebrate quietly, with a small amount of gifts, and a moderately special meal.  I like the idea of creating a raw holiday menu.  I’ve not done a holiday fully raw yet.  No better time to start than now.  I also give myself permission to make that Christmas celebration cooked vegan, should I change my mind. One meal does not undo the other 29 days of eating 100%.

A challenge means setting up some goals.  Obviously, the main goal will be to stay 100% raw vegan.  I had 17 days at 100% during my September challenge.   I will consider myself successful in meeting the 100% goal when I increase the number of days at 100%.  I’ve signed up for Natasha’s 10 day juice feasting program.  I do not intend to be 100% juice feasting during those days.  The purpose behind it is to inspire me to have at least 1 green juice per day.   Getting the greens in increases my raw mojo.  And, I like to investigate various people’s coaching programs.   I’ve poked around juicefeasting.com for example.  We’ll see how Natasha’s fasting regime compares.

My other goals are the similar to my last challenge.

  1. Stay 100% raw vegan
  2. Get 30 minutes of cardio 5 times per week
  3. Continue doing 3 mile walks 2 times per week with my buddy (this can count towards the 5 cardio sessions)
  4. Honestly journal my daily food intake.
  5. Spend time each day reflecting on what is good in my life (practicing gratitude)

I’ve informed my spouse that I’m doing another challenge and asked for support.  She has agreed to provide it.  I will periodically remind her of my personal commitment  prior to Day 1.   The time for mental preparation has begun.  Next week shall be the time for physical preparation.  That means adding more living foods (greens!) to my diet and easing off of caffeine and dairy.   It also means preparing some raw staples for the month.  I need an adequate supply of crackers, raw breads, gRAWnola,  and deserts/snacks.     Time to try a new recipe or two.  The count-down has begun.

30 day challenge – Week 4 wrap-up

October 16, 2009
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Ok – I’m really late posting about the last week of my September 30 Day Challenge.   I’ve been traveling on business, so I’m using that as my excuse.  I was also taking some more classes at Living Light.  This time it was Knife Skills and Science of Raw Food Nutrition.  I’ll blog more about that when I have some more time.  Let’s get back to the challenge wrap up.

The last week was ok.  I ended up finishing the challenge on day 28 since we had an out-of-town guest who brought yummy bean burritos (how could I resist?).  The results of the challenge were subtle, but there. 

  • I lost about 6 pounds (since regained by going a bit overboard on the goodies – but I at least know that if I’m consistent about eating the healthy stuff there is a pay-off, however slow)
  • all of my chronic joint and tendon pain disappeared!  This is huge.  I’ve had pain in one form or another since 2002.  I’m still feeling pain-free even though I’m not eating as well.  It did take a couple of weeks for this
  • I had an insane amount of energy. I literally had a hard time getting to sleep at night because I just wasn’t tired.  And there was no brain-fog fuzziness in the morning.  I jumped out of bed ready to rumble every single day.
  • My mood was rock-star happy and consistent – no swings!
  • It was easier to exercise – I had the energy, and with the good mood I had the motivation
  • I really got into the habit of making better choices.  It’s amazing how you can find ways to stick to eating living foods if you make it so you have no other choice.  Where there’s a will, there’s a way.
  • It got easier the longer I did it.

Would I do it again?  Absolutely! I’ve been taking a bit of a break (damn you dairy my nemesis!) from eating strictly vegan and living foods.  I’ve paid the price by finding my lost 6 lbs, returning to my typically moody emotional state, and I’m feeling really tired and unmotivated.

I think it’s time to do a cleanse and return to the high-raw state.  The experience has convinced me that eating this way is the best thing I can do for my health.  I know the biochemistry behind it all from the Science of Raw Food Nutrition class I just completed.  Knowing it and living it are two different things however.

Knowing it and feeling it don’t make it any easier to do regularly however. It’s still a struggle.  I’m starting to believe that it will be easier to just stick to it all the time rather than going on again off again.  Everytime I start over it seems harder somehow.  The victory is in continuing to begin again.  Success can only come when you make the journey.  I’m learning this the hard way.  Sooner of later the habit will become so ingrained that it’s like taking my daily shower: it’s just something that I do.  Period.

30 day challenge – Week 3/4

September 25, 2009
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I made it out of the slump! Yeah, it took a few days longer than I would have liked.  I blame sleep deprivation. It’s a bit more difficult to hold the line with new habits when one is groggy groggy groggy. three But, I did rally! I spent the rest of week 3 eating blissfully 100% raw (don’t ask about the bevvies.  I did slip back into coffee — see the part about sleep dep). I was really beat and didn’t exercise too much but managed to get in two stellar cardio workouts nonetheless.  So here’s the stats on my monthly goals so far:

1. Complete a 30 day 100% raw vegan challenge: I’m on day 25.  I’ve had 17 days of 100% raw.  I’ve had a stretch which ran 7 days — the longest run of all-raw I’ve ever had.  I’ve gotten into the flow of regular raw routine.  I actually think about my choices when I reach to grab food.  I’m considering extending the challenge into October! Even though September hasn’t been perfect, it’s been the best period of raw-eating that I’ve ever done.   That’s something. I’ve got 5 days left.  I’m going to end on a high point.

2. Exercise 30 minutes per day, 5 days per week.  Week 1 I did 4 days of workouts, a couple of which were longer than 30 minutes.  One was significantly longer – I rode the tandem with my beautiful wife for 2.5 hours.  We’ve started doing that on Saturday afternoons – another good habit instigated! Week 2: 3 30 minute workouts, 1 2.5 hour workout.  Week 3: 2 workouts.  Hey! It’s better than zero workouts.  Week 4: I’ve done 1 1.5 hour skating workout, and 4 half-hour workouts.  One of those was a high intensity interval skate.   I’d say I’ve been pretty successful at this goal given the circumstances surrounding my lack of sleep and resulting exhaustion.

3. Attend 1 Iyengar Yoga class : this is still pending.  The 30 days are not done yet though!

4. Cycle to work 3 times.   I’ve cycled to work 5 times.  I’m getting close to doing it every work day.

I’m feeling pretty good about it all.  In the past I’d take my less than perfect results as an excuse to beat myself up.  I’m practicing being kind to myself.  Attitude is everything.  We are what we think we are.  I think I’ve made amazing progress.  I’m going way more exercising than I was before.  I’m eating much healthier than I was before.  I’ve resumed activities which give me great joy (cycling, and in-line skating). I’m becoming accustomed to making the raw choice when presented with obstacles.  I even celebrated my birthday in the raw.  I made an awesome raw  German Chocolate Cake (recipe to follow) which was very well received by the carnivores in my life.

I’m counting my September 30 day raw food challenge as a success even though the month isn’t done yet.  I’m planning on giving myself a juice feast challenge pretty soon as a follow-up.   At the end of the month, I’ll do a wrap-up and list the positive benefits I’ve experienced from the challenge.

Fuhrman on motivation

September 18, 2009
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I’m a huge fan of Joel Fuhrman’s Eat to Live.  It’s the only book about a mostly raw vegan eating plan that extensively cites the peer-reviewed research literature.  My only issue with the work is that the recipes suck (sorry Joel).   The book espouses a lifestyle which is extremely healthy and it’s very convincing.  Dr. Fuhrman, like Gabriel Cousens, has helped thousands of people lose weight, lower blood pressure, lower diabetes medications and just generally feel better.

Eat to LiveI’m a member of his website and find it helpful in getting recipes from other ETL adherents and in getting some much needed motivation from the support forums.

Here’s a few quotations from Dr. Fuhrman which have helped me stay motivated (don’t ask about the 30 day challenge – I’m hanging in there, barely).
“…It is more difficult to go off and on, and less stressful if you just decide to do it and stop looking for excuses to eat garbage.”

“…you have to eat the greens to break the cycle, whether you feel like it or not.”

You don’t have to work to do this diet-style, you just have to eat it, and not eat the other stuff
“..completely change your mindset from trying to eat healthfully to doing it 100%”

“…Don’t “try” to do it. Just do it no matter what, or don’t eat. If you are 100% committed you always find a way to make it work. If you are just “trying” you always find an excuse to not make it work

The SALAD is the main dish
“Eating a huge, delicious salad is the secret to successful weight control and a long healthy life.”
-Dr. Fuhrman

30 day challenge – still in the slump

September 16, 2009
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I’m trying to rally.  Really. I’m still in the 2nd week slump, however.  I slept very poorly Sunday night.  I was exhausted Monday.  And Tuesday.  Here it is Wednesday and I’m still not recovered.  I blame monthly hormonal shifts. I need to blame something.  It’s either that or lack of exercise.  I haven’t managed to get any since Sunday. It’s been one of those weeks.  Monday has been my scheduled day of rest.  Yesterday was just highly scheduled.  It happens. I have to be flexible when other things like work or family take priority.

I’m just finding it very difficult to garner the energy to go out and do it.  I’m using every trick I’ve got to motivate myself.  I’m reminding myself that by exercising I’ll actually increase my energy level and want to exercise more.  I envision myself putting on my gear.  Just putting on my gear.  That’s very do-able.  Once the gear is on, I’m more likely to go out and move.  I’m telling myself that I can do 5 minutes.  If I still feel bleh then I can stop.  In all my years of exercising, I’ve probably only had 1 time where I stopped when I told myself that.  When I get going, I usually want to keep going.

Mood wise I’ve been very very crabby.  Between the exhaustion and the mood I’m finding it incredibly difficult to stay 100% raw or vegan.  I’m at the 90% mark so far this week.  I just want to grab what’s convenient and not have to think about it.  I just want things which are “comfort food” and I haven’t had the energy to do my pre-preparation on complex recipes and I haven’t had the groceries on hand to just grab a piece of fruit.  And the kitchen’s been a mess.  In other words, I’m encountering many barriers this week.  That leads to a latte here, a few saltines there, and a quick meal of sliced cheese since it was the only appealing thing in the fridge.

I said before that the some of the “one-littlest-thing’s”  I can do each day to be successful are to pack the night ahead, plan menus/meals, keep appropriate groceries on hand.   And I haven’t.  It’s getting difficult to continue treating myself nicely when faced with adversity.  I can see what’s wrong here.  I know how to fix it.  I just can’t seem to apply the knowledge.  Here’s the part where self-talk and willingness to change enter the mix.  Falling into familiar barriers leads me to practice familiar habits.  These habits are choices.  Choice implies the ability to select between alternatives.  What alternative to choose then?

Today, I choose to head to the grocery store after work.  I’m going to get some pre-washed, pre-cut, fruit and veg.  An abundance of it.  Enough for my dinner tonight and my meals tomorrow.  That way, I don’t need to think about anything meal related.  I can grab and go without grabbing my wife’s coffee-pot left-overs in the morning.  I’m also going to get some more ingredients for my birthday cake.  When I get home, I’m going to change into my workout gear the instant I arrive (well ok, maybe I will feed the dogs first. Make that the second instant after I get home).    I’m going to exercise.  And watch a movie at the same time.

Finally, I’m going to ask my wife to help me get the kitchen cleaned up.  Then it will be ready for me to make fabulous things tomorrow night when I (hopefully) will be feeling more energetic and happy due to the exercise.

The most important thing is to not give up.  Patience, persistence, practice.  I’m doing great.  Having a less than 100% day is not a good reason stopping the challenge.  I’ll carry on and let you know how it goes.

30 day challenge – 2nd week slump

September 13, 2009
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I’m still raw-king the 30 day challenge! I’ve had a few bumps along the way, however.  I think I’ll call it “the 2nd week slump.”  I rode through the 1st week of the challenge on getting-started-enthusiasm.  Plus, I lost 3.6 lbs during my first 5 days.  That’s a very strong motivator. I’m a bit sorry that’s the case.  I am focusing more on health than weight ’cause weight is just the force of gravity on my body.  That force does cause some of my aches and pains though, so I’ll give myself a get-out-of-jail-free card on that count.  I’m all about being kind to myself.

2nd week

2nd week

I lost an additional pound during the second week.  That makes a total of 4.6 lbs so far.  Not shabby.  It is a significant slow down but not unexpected.  One pound per week is a very healthy loss.  I’ll be very happy indeed if I keep this rate for the rest of the month.

My aches and pains are doing quite well.  Not completely gone, but much less noticeable.  Yay! Pain sucks and it can kiss my you-know-what.

My energy levels have gone through the roof.  I’m finding it difficult to go to sleep at my usual 9:30pm bed time (it’s not that early, I do need to get out of bed at 5:00am for work-out and cycling to work).  I’m still way less groggy in the morning as well. I’m finding it easier to exercise and that’s fabulous.  Exercise is a critical component of self-care for my medical conditions.

All in all, I’d have to say the progress is still there if slowed.  I think it’s my own fault that the momentum hasn’t sustained itself.  I mentioned that I indulged in a few beers at the end of week one.  During week two, I had a few handfuls of non-raw blue corn tortilla chips and (true confession time here) I had a cup of cooked brown rice with butter on it when I was feeling nauseous from having fresh fruit juice on an empty stomach.  It’s not an excuse, but an explanation.   Finally, I had coffee rather than teechino both this morning and yesterday morning.  My almond-milk lattes are more than caffeine to me.  It’s a weekend ritual that I share with my spouse.  We have our coffee in bed and read the news and treat ourselves to a slower than weekday start to our day.   All of these indulgences came at a cost.

I’d have to say that my second week was about 99% raw.  I’m very pleased with myself even with the indulgences.  The slow down has left me more motivated to do better during week three.  There are a few more things that I’m doing to ensure that I sustain this motivation.

  1. I’m preparing my menu plan for the week and making some items ahead of time.  On the agenda today: pine nut parmesan, carrot & currant salad,  almond cheese, and my juices and green leafy salad for tomorrow’s breakfast & lunch.  These items should see me through Wednesday.  And, I’m left with a grocery list for my mid-week food prep.  I won’t need to think about it too much during my busy work week. Flipping through my raw recipes books always gets me stoked about eating yummy nutritious food.
  2. I’m planning my raw birthday cake.  I will complete my 38th revolution around the sun this Thursday.  I’m going to have me some German Chocolate cake!  Making kick-ass raw recipes always excites me.  I’m making this baby up in my own head, inspired by the recipe in I am grateful: recipes & lifestyle of Cafe Gratitude.
  3. I’m remembering that I’m going up to Ft. Bragg in October to do a few more classes for my raw chef certification.  I feel a need to be truly raw until I get there.  The folks at Living Light are not hard-nosed evangelical raw types.  They are truly accepting of everybody whatever their place on the raw food spectrum.  It’s my own emotions that draw me into a higher percentage of eating raw.  It’s about integrity.  I want to be a truly raw raw chef.
  4. Our boyfriend is visiting for a week starting at the beginning of week 4.  I haven’t seen him in 6 weeks and I’m curious to find out how much of a difference in me that he will notice (or not).
  5. I feel great! And I know that I feel great ’cause I’m truly nourishing myself.  When I remember that, it’s easy to say no to traditional cooked vegan fare.
  6. I’m keeping my end of the bargain when it comes to all the other things I committed to doing this month.  I’ve been cycling to work.  I have already done it 3 times, which was all I said I would do. Of course I’m so excited about it that I’m going to keep it up.   I’ve been exercising at least 30 minutes a day 5 days a week.  I do count the cycling to work.  I’ve also been roller blading and walking and stretching.

Lot’s of reasons to stay on track right there.  My intentions are set.  It will be a fabulous week, the best week ever.

Monthly goals

September 1, 2009
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I wrote about my monthly goals on Sunday, but thought I’d summarize them in a single easy to reference post.  For September 2009 my goals are:

  1. Complete a 30 day 100% raw vegan challenge 09/01-09/30
  2. Exercise for 30 minutes 5 days per week
  3. Take at least 1 Iyengar yoga class this month
  4. Cycle to work 3 times, if possible, once the air quality improves.  I’m very close to the Station fire and it’s currently raining very chunky ash

That’s enough I think.  Don’t want to overwhelm myself.  Got to keep things Specific, Measurable, Achievable, Relevant, and Time-framed.   It helps that I’m already raw for two meals per day.  I made my fitday account publicly viewable, so folks can see what I’m eating.  I did pretty good staying raw yesterday.  I had some toast with cheese in the evening.  I simply forgot I was going to stay 100% raw.  I’m used to having cooked ovo-lacto veg food in the evenings.  Good thing it was still August.  I technically hadn’t started my Sept. 100% raw challenge.  Today has been 100% raw so far.   I think if I make it 3 days, I’ll be ok.  It’s like juice fasting.  Once I get through the initial hump it gets easier.  I need to watch out for the things which can interfere with my goals.  For tomorrow, I’ll figure out what the obstacles are and come up with work-arounds.

Courtney on habits gets me into goals

August 30, 2009
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small, consistent habits are what bring results” says Courtney over at Radical Radiance.  I couldn’t agree more.  Somebody, sorry, I forget who, once asked me, “what’s the one smallest thing you can do today to get yourself closer to achieving your goal?”   When I replied, that person came back at me with, “well then do it.”

It’s so Nike (just do it).  Or Nancy Reagan (just say no).  But simple is not easy as I always say.  The thing which holds us back is all or nothing thinking.  If I can’t do it all at once, I can give in and let myself slide.  If I can’t juice feast 100% for 90 days, then I’ll go straight back into SAD style eating.  It’s b*lsh*t.  It’s truly addictive thinking.  The addict inside makes any excuse to justify continuing in the comfortable familiar ruts.

So what’s the one smallest thing I can do each day to get closer to my goal? Um. I first need to articulate a goal.  A few days ago I said I was going to do that soon.  And I was going to make those goals SMART.  Specific, Measurable, Achievable, Relevant, Time-framed.

Well ok then.  We’re at the start of a new month.  It’s my birthday month (going to be 38), no better time to take on a challenge.   My goal for this month is to be 100% raw.  There.  I said it.  I’ve put it down in text. The proof is right there in front of me.  My other goal this month is to return to my old habit of cycling to work.  Unfortunately, I can’t begin cycling just yet.  I live in L.A. very close to the Station Fire and the air quality is dangerous.  So, I’ll return to exercising at lunch inside the gym.  I took my gym bag to work last week, so I”m ready to go with that.   I need to focus on the 100% raw.

What’s the one smallest thing I can do each day to help?  I can actually think of lots of small things I can do.

  1. Plan what I’m going to eat
  2. Prepare food each night for the following day.
  3. Set out my supplements so I take them every morning with my meds
  4. Have juice or green smoothie for breakfast (hey! I already do this! I’m making good progress already)
  5. Sip on water at work instead of coffee or tea.
  6. Tell my family what I’m going and ask for support I did this today.  Guess I’m on my way.
  7. Have a plan B in case I don’t prepare food ahead.

Steps 1-3 are practically the same, so I’ll amalgamate.  Step 4 is a non-starter, since I already to it. Plan B will be to eat at the salad bar at the campus cafeteria if I don’t bring my own food for some reason.

There.  I’ve figured out what  small things I can do.  Now to do it.  My eating plan for tomorrow:

Breakfast: Green juice – celery, apple, parsley, lemon.

Lunch: sprouted quinoa and hemp seed tabbouleh

Snack: Green smoothie: pineapple, banana, coconut water kefir, kale.

Dinner: Wrap’n'roll with mock salmon pate (if I’m hungry – I may not be after the hearty smoothies).

I need to make the juice tonight.  I’m procrastinating.  It’s well over 100 degrees F.  I will do it before bed.  update: I did do it before bed.  Can’t find the camera to take pix of the granola so that is going to have to wait.

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